arts+crafts jfashion and communities: 8/4/25
β warning: self harm discussion in last paragraphover the summer ive gone shopping at a lot of places and a lot of the things ive gotten were deco related because i wanted to make more things for oshikatsu purposes like preparing to make another ita bag and decorating pins and yea.
i mentioned this in my last post but the first part was while i was at a mall i went to daiso for the first time in a while the last time was with friends i think and i didnt really look around but this time i was on a mission and ended up being in there for an entire hour i couldnt leave. i got a few things, not a lot compared to my next daiso visit. this one was maybe a couple weeks later and was in a stand alone daiso location and it was a lot bigger and i got A LOT more things. still with the purpose of oshikatsu in mind i got some ribbons and little decorations and a hot gue gun and some lace and some other things but but most importantly a hot glue gun. i had never had one before and that would help a lot since sewing scares me. i also tried some canned coffee they had there and it was so good i need to go back please let me go back. i also knew i needed to go to michaels (american arts and crafts store) at some point too to get some more materials that werent at daiso and i did earlier this week and god is daiso cheap it made me forget what stores are usually like. i ended up getting some ribbons, pyramid stud STICKERS (sad there were no actual studs whtever), and a cross charm that i could put on something at some point.
a couple weeks after my second daiso visit my new dearmylove ita bag arrived it is so pretty i like it a lot but didnt really use much of what i got. i attached this pin holder keychain i got from daiso to the bag and put some lace in the insert to temporally fill some blank space and i havent changed it since then i already took it out so im fine with it currently but i'll update it when i feel like it. but besides that i havent really made anything with all the deco shit ive acquired (and also didnt really feel like using it for oshikatsu because of my growing disdain for the culture (what who said that) and also between daiso visits and the bag arriving i decided to do a casual research/guessing game of what caused the ita bag style shift/oshiktasu boom of the 2020s and kind of made me want to practice more traditional otaku things in the future but enough about that) until now!!!!!!!!!!
a few days ago with the ribbons i got from michaels i started practicing making bows and ended up making this
hopefully it doesnt come apart at some point lol.
yesterday i was so bored because i had run out of things to do online and irl and then i thought "i guess i can make a lolita headdress now" and so i did with double sided tape, hot glue, and a dream
i think it turned out nice for my first attempt at anything like it, i still need to attach clips or somthing like that which gives me another excuse to go to daiso YEEAAAAAA
on the topic of lolita which is on the topic of jfahsion/fashion in general ive been waning to expand my wardrobe and add more dasapunk related shit i belive that is the term for the look im going for. in june i got 2 pants from acdc rag ohmygod the shipping price but i like them i especially love the b&w tartan sarrouel pants i got so cool i love how fun they look. i also got 2 tops from mercari around the same time they go together with the pants nicely very cool very badass uke like (if you know you know). i also found a super cool belt at a thrift store near my dentist and it goes insanely hard. all the things ive gotten recently go super well together i love wearing them heres a pic with some of those things
(i'd show more if i could get the pictures i took with my new keitai off the fucking phone ive been going through microusb troubleshooting hell for a while)
thats things ive gotten but there are still some things i want/need like pants i still need more pants ACDC RAG PLLLEEEAASE RESTOCK YOUR BLACK TARTAN BONDAGE PANTS I BEG OF YOU AND PLLLLEEEEEEEAAAASSSEEE RESTOCK YOUR LONG SLEEVED OVERSIZED CROSS SHIRT WITH THE ZIPPERS ON THE SLEEVE PLLEEAAASEEE another thing i want for my wardrobe is a leather choker a simple one would be a nice addition. im just looking forward to getting more jfashion pieces yay. also id like to be able to go to jfashion meetups or something or maybe make new friends who are into jfashion at college i just want to hang out with people with similar fashion tastes
thats it for the fashion stuff onto some things i've been thinking about online stuff recently. theres so little privacy one things that prevents me from going to events and stuff is that i could appear in 10 billions photographs in someones tsory or worse a permanate post like i was looking at harujuku day @ little tokyo in la's stories for their most recent gathering and oh my god thats like a nightmare for me. the thought of so many uploads and pictures of me being uploaded anywhere i hate that so much. im not really shitting on the people who take pictures that happen to include people in the background, thats basically inevitable if youre in public, but i HATE how everything is uploaded online like you cant go anywhere without appearing somewhere if that makes sense.
i feel liek the internet is so synonymous with real life id even say that its more important or more prioritized. this isnt a "phone bad the kids these days are always online" im talking about how things are now like i realized that the words "chronically online" dont really mean anything anymore because being online is required for so many things in everyday life. its expected of you and its integrated into every part of our lives. i also dont want to sound like all im saying is "old interent better" because thats not really the point im trying to make and also people would get mad at me and say "WHAT YOU WERE TOO YOUNG TO BE ON THE INTERENT IN IT S GOLDEN AGE SHUT THE FUCK UP IMBECILE" but yea ugh i just wish it wasnt so synonymous .. i feel like you could be more anonymous in real life at least with how youre kinda expected to be one version of yourself everywhere online if that makes sense. i just want to show up somewhere without the fear of that version of myself being imortalized without my consent. that and my overwheming insecurites with how i look literally a nightmare ESPECIALLY with how people talk about other people looks online nowadays.
on the topic of the internet, everything is so connected you dont really go to specific sites anymore because everyone has to go to these app super powers like twitter or tumblr and manually make communities there like everyone is concentrated into these social media apps like millions of people. on twitter theres subtwts which are kinda wack like theres "xyz-twt" and "abc-twt" its kinda funny how its like everyone forced to hang out in this giant park or mall called twitter because people dont really find communities in specific places made for them because people arent finding niche websites anymore/they dont exist anymore and everyone in this giant crowd having to form little groups. i dont know if this makes sense i just noticed how absurd when i think about it sometimes. its like sometimes seeing a random subtwt and thinking about how its all on twitter with 10 billion other subtwts.
on the topic of subtwts one notable one is shtwt aka self harm twt. i dont really have a good segway into this besides this topic of subtwts but sometimes i see posts from there sometimes just scrolling and seeing shtwt in a display name or even seeing pictures uncensored and ive never understood why people do it ever since i did it myself for the first time. i know why i did it, it was because of overwhelming stress and the brief feeling of relief it brought. is that why other people do it, probably some do. is it for fun i dont kow but ive never bothered to look it up or something because im embarrassed to ask. not just shtwt but any look at self harm anywhere in drawing or seeing old scars i just feel a mix of embarrassment because i dont know why pedole do it and shame on my behalf for reasons idk. anyways seeing pictures and videos of it and people doing it togther etc i just dont know why or how people get into these communities and want to post on twitter. its to connect with other people thats why people join communities obviously, but again i dont know. and back to the online communities discussion maybe id understand and understand myself better if there was a place thats not on twitter for it like a forum or something. i dont know ive always felt a mix of shame confusion and embarrassment for my history with self harm so i feel like anything thats NOT twitter would be a better place to understand. sorry if any of thats stupid this is just want ive been thinkinh for a couple of yearsAND OHMYGOD MY SITE IS 2 YEARS OLD NOW I CANT REMEMBER WHEN THE ANNIVERSARY IS BUT IT WAS IN JULY OHMYGOD I FORGOT anyways uh yyeeaa just seeing glimpses of other peoples lives what they do i feel like an outsider despite shared experiences. i dont know what knowing would do for me i dont know if it would give me a reason to cut again or if it would do something anything at all but yeaaaaaaa